Loneliness sets in…
Don’t get me wrong, I love being single. There is nothing greater than the feeling of having complete freedom, something seriously lacking in all previous relationships. Unfortunately, it’s periods like these (when I have so much free time) that I miss the physical and emotional interaction I find in having a girlfriend. I find myself trying so hard to brush it off. Is it a deep-seeded longing or merely an extremely short bout of depression? I’d like to believe it’s the latter but I find this feeling becoming more and more frequent.
And quite honestly, that’s dangerous.
I’ve tried POF and OkCupid, but I can’t help but wonder if I’m looking to date just for the sake of dating. I’m getting too old for this shit and I need someone I can seriously connect with. I want it to be natural. Find someone who has similar interest and taste and grow from there. Either I’m just being cynical towards online dating or my reservations are justified. I just don’t know, and it sucks….
I could always act on what I’ve posted before. I mean, it’s someone I’m incredibly attracted to in so many ways but find myself paralyzed with fear. But then again, I could always break out of my comfort zone and stare rejection in the face. Out of my league or not, if you never play the game, it becomes deathly certain that you can never win.
